Hysterectomy: Lost 3 and Gained ME!

I am happy to announce that Monday I will be Lady Parts free, YAY... People have been asking me if I am nervous and the answer is really, NO! After dealing with the Fibroids pains, while also going through Menopause, I am happy, no thrilled that I will be pain free. Having a Fibroid cramp is extremely painful, so painful in fact, I rather have another baby, LOL, people look at me funny when I say that. It feel like a cramp that just get worst and worst by the second. It paralyzes you into one spot, missing those regular cramps. I had to take Ibuprofen to deal with the pain. I was having three to four periods a month. Let's not even discuss how the pain got worst after I was prescribed Birth Control. Oh, I was pissed. The medicine that was to help regulate on problem, was also the cause of another problem. So when the Doctor told me I can solve my problem by just taking my Lady Parts out parts that I will never use, Bonus, NO MORE CYCLE. GAME!

The closer the Surgery date gets, the more I get sad because I will be at my dad's during recovery and won't see my daughter everyday. Now, she is over 18, but, I love being in the same house with her. When I told her, she said "he can take care of you full-time." Having a great support system is key in this. Having my Dad involved and willing to care for me is the best feeling and I must admit, I am looking forward to that again. Being back in my old room where my life started, It was meant to be. It's sad that my girls can't be with me at the hospital, but it makes me happy to know they'll be thinking of me and checking in on me constantly. I am lucky to have loved them both enough to have them support me.

I am also excited because I am getting 6-8 weeks off from Work. I have been at the same place for 20 years and right about now with especially Menopause, personal stress and work stress, I can use a emotional and mental break. I plan on using those weeks to reset my mind and my life. Over the last year, I have been working hard on changing what I mean to myself, who I am to myself, and what I want to do with myself.

As a mom we live for our kids. As an Employee we work for our Employer. As a friend or lover, you "give yourself" to them. We give to others and leave nothing for ourselves and that is what Menopause is for. It is our signal to tell us it time to Pause everyone and to press Start on yourself. To find out who you are and not the Mom you always will be. I already know that I will be there for my girls but it is time to walk in front of them and not beside them. I know myslef as a Mom, but truth is, I am learning who I am just as Kim. I look forward to my break and I can not wait until Monday. My new life will begin and I am saying good-bye to my old life.

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